Monotone...
Juz finished packing my bag. Heading to Male, Maldives tonite.
Im nt feeling great. Juz packed the instant cup noodles dat I bought from Japan and suddenly all the memories juz rushed in. Memories of us making cup noodles at nite wen i was hungry. Memories of us eating the cup noodles while watching nip tuck. Its just damn painful.
Im still tinking of her. Cant help it. It just happens. Wanna noe hw she's doin. Whether her chest pains are still occuring, whether her back still hurts but I cant msg her coz of the promise i made. =S .I juz hope dat her frens are keeping track of her chest pains. Haiz.
Im juz in a monotonous state rite now. Juz doing what Halim does everyday. Behaving like how Halim would do on any normal day. But my insides are still in a turmoil. Hafta figure out wat I want. Haiz..
I juz hope she's doin alrite. Havent been reading her blog for fear dat I'll do sumthg stupid. She'll be happy i noe. Or at least I hope she'll be happy..Tc dear dear..
Off to Male tonite..Hopefully the sun, sand and sea can make me forget abt my worries here.. =S ..
Ciaoz peeps.. =)
Stonezzz...
Stoning and slacking at the comforts of my home with no one ard..
Juz me, myself and i..And my comp as well..
Raining outside..so have been slping much of the day away..Hehe..
Aniwae, juz gt back from Fukuoka yest..Its a v.nice plc..Managed to stock up on my cup noodles and drystores..Nothg much dat i can do thr tho coz the time spent thr is v.short.
Oh well..Nothg much gng on now..Juz gonna watch a movie later..Slacking and spending time at home..Recharging..Hee..Cant wait to be back for xmas eve tho..
Off to Male, Maldives tmr..Another relaxing plc..Wahaha..Cya folks..
Ciaoz.. =D
Lost
Terribly Lost..Nt sure what to do now..What to think..
Juz wanna be alone but i noe i cant, coz thots keep drifting in and out weneva im alone..Sumtimes its scary to even be alone..
Wednesday was just the day wen adverse reactions occur..Wen cause and effects start kicking in..I mite have been too harsh but it will most prob be for the best..(at least dats wat im trying to console myself wid)
Saw her at zouk even tho she told me she wasnt coming and dat made it even harder den it alreadi is..Wat was worse was dat i noe dat she was alreadi tipsy.. =( ..and i cldnt do anithin abt it for fear of making wat was alreadi a bad situation worse..So I juz stood thr fr afar and quietly watch her till I cldnt take it and headed to phuture..
Luckily my frens were thr as well..Drank wid dem till i was quite tipsy as well..Juz to get all thots out of my head..Haiz..Sweet sweet yas also came to zouk to check on hw i was doin..even tho she had an early flt the next day..
I still cant seem to get her(princess) out of my head tho..Try as I mite..Its juz not working..Everytime, i go online, her blog will naturally be one of the 1st few sites i'll head to..And I went to check it today..Nt a gd thg rite..Haiz..
Aniwae, it seems like she's gt alot of ppl to take care of her..I noe dey wun understand our situation fully and dey will most prob fault me but I gez its fine wid me..
Im heading to Frankfurt today..Im dreading to go thr..All the memories..The gd times we had thr..Tried chging for another flight but cant..I dunnoe what Im gonna do..Gonna feel wen im thr..Haha..I feel so fucked up now..Haiz..Tinking of my work, ive gt a Taipei nex mth and dat'll be another plc i'll be dreading to go..God help me thru all dis..
Im sorry as well dar dar..
Sori I caused u dis much anguish and agony..I hope dat hueva u'll find will tc of u and noe ur every habit and will giv u the commitment, stability and happiness dat u crave..Im gonna miss u alot(alreadi have) and u'll always be my apple.
